I never really enjoyed to be deep in self reflection, I feel like its taking forever to get back on my feet. just now i was able to bookend a bit of a rough patch in my life, being out here not being able to see what the month ahead will be like has made me feel lost. being the tiniest bit independent has made me feel lost in this fog i cant seem to move past out of... being forced to look at home has at least made it clear why it is that i stay on my own, I'm shallow. not like i worked to be this way, nor that I'm not currently the best version that i have ever been of me... theres just not a lot to what I am.

I don't have to apologize for the scratches my frown left across my brass, had i known youd feel sorry upon knowing me i would've spent more time on polishing up a smile. grit and all i know where i belong and i know you got places to go.